Recommit...or uhhhh....I WILL CONTINUE...

So uhhhh...it's been a couple week...and I've been a SLACKER. I mean not completely...BUT...I haven't done as good as I KNOW I should. It's been SO SO SO nice out a lot lately...so I just tell myself..."ok so the walks I did this morning....the gardening I'm doing...the playing with my kids...ALL that will make up for NOT doing my Slim in 6"....SO SO SO NOT the case :( 

I have been going to Zumba Tuesday/Thursday nights...even a couple early mornings in there too...and then after Zumba...a few of us go to the weight room and lift for 30-45 minutes...BUT...I have NOT been keeping up on my Slim in 6 like I wanted to...or like I SHOULD be. :( 

Also...I had my birthday last weekend...and family was in town the week before...and let's just be honest...my eating has REALLY REALLY REALLY slacked...I haven't been doing what I KNOW I should be...and I've been making excuses...

It's terrible, because I see my "old" self in there...and I DON'T like it...I do NOT want to go back to that...and even though Ryan and I talk about it...it's still not changing completely. I'm doing great with my portion sizes...my meal times...but not always so great with my meal CHOICES...or my "GOOD" calories. So...there...I said it...I posted it...I explained it. 

My clothes still fit ok...I can tell I'm not doing TERRIBLE...but yet I'm letting myself down. Regardless of what the excuses...(family, stress, kids, no money, time, WHATEVER...) it doesn't matter...the point is I'm just NOT making it a priority like I did for so many weeks a couple months ago.

Time to hunker down and GET BACK TO IT!!!! I went and spent my birthday money on two CUTE dresses...long, flow-y, somewhat form fitting dresses...ones I could NEVER do or pull off before because I was self-conscious about the "extra rolls" or "muffin tops"...BUT now I feel confident...I feel ok with myself...and although I don't like it COMPLETELY yet...I'm content with it and KNOW I'm working on it and making the changes to reach my goals!!!!

Kinda-sorta like these dresses...but not really...but you get the point!!! They are this style...but not these patterns....

SOOOOOO....now that I have these dresses...they will NOT be ones that I just put on the hanger and leave in the closet...they are MY dresses...MY prizes...MY birthday money well spent...I WILL fit in them good...and I will wear them proudly!!!! You just wait!!! :) :) :) :)

AND....my amazing hubby got me a FABULOUS birthday present and I feel healthy, full and HAPPY having it in my diet again!!!! :) I WILL do this!!!

People....Good, Bad, AND the Ugly...

There are SO many different people in our lives aren't there...this week for me has been FILLED with quite the array of people...the happy, the sad, the good, the kind, the rude, the selfish, the "I'm better then everyone", the angry, the inconsiderate, the ones who continue to bless your life, the "I'll help in ANY way I can", and on and on and on....there are LOTS of people out there...


With all I've opened myself up to...with all I've put out on the line (or online)...with as honest and open as I've been...I'm REALLY surprised with how people are and how they act. I don't know what it is...but I've gotten a whole lot of reactions or responses or comments or whatever. Some of them I have to choose to ignore and move on...and others I just relish and read over and over again to realize that there REALLY are genuinely KIND people out there!!! 


It's hard to find in this world isn't it...people who only want to help...only want to say positive things...only want to lift people up. Instead we find...(and I'm just as guilty of it)...people who are constantly negative...criticizing themselves and others...complaining about anything and everything...trying to make others look worse to lift themselves maybe!?!?!?! I don't know...but I've been thinking about it a lot the last few days...just about the people I have around me. 

And I'm FINALLY starting to realize that I need to be done with some and move on. I need to surround myself with people who lift me up...who are really there to help...who genuinely CARE about me and how I'm doing. 

I don't need the ones who make smart @$$ comments about me or my family or what I may or may not be doing.
I don't need the ones who just by their looks or expressions can show that they really don't care and don't want to hear anything about how I'm REALLY doing.
I don't need the ones who aren't honest with me, or themselves for that matter, because what good does lying do??


I NEED to surround myself with happy, positive, GOOD people who will lift my spirits when I'm having a bad day...who will make me smile when I don't feel like doing it on my own. I need people who love me for who I am and nothing more. 

People who I know I can count on even when I can't see them...like that saying says...friends and people who will talk or help whenever I need it!!!


I just need to think a little more...I am VERY much a people person...but when the people I am around make me angry or bring me down...that's not a good quality to have...I need to surround myself with people who make me the HAPPY BECKI!!!! Is that too much to ask!?!?!

I am honestly SO SO SO incredibly grateful for all the amazing comments that were left on my last post...not all of them were on this blog...but rather on the link I put on facebook...BUT if I could share them all on here I would...they seriously made me cry to realize how much people really DO care about me. THOSE are the people I need to keep around me...THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all of you...and to the others...buh-bye ;)

Results....but NOT stopping... :)

Well...I haven't blogged in a LONG time :( Things have gotten crazy at home...family was sick for a week...and I've been slacking on this whole diet thing. I do GREAT on the workouts...and always get those in...(at least try)...but the eating part has been REAL hard, because of all that's been going on. I just haven't made it a priority...and I'm paying for it :(

Anyways...I've REALLY debated about posting these pictures, because let's be honest...the starting ones are DISGUSTING...makes me sick really to look at them!!! But for the first time yesterday I put the "before" picture and the "NOW" picture side by side...and I FINALLY realized how much this really HAS worked!!! I knew my clothes were fitting better...and that I had to get new jeans to FIT!!! I knew I was happier and feeling better...but honestly...I wasn't noticing a lot of changes in myself...well my body. I still have my gut that I HATE...and I still have things to work on...BUT this showed me that it IS working!!! I've toned...I've gotten happier...I've started a journey...and I WILL NOT STOP. 

SOOOO....here goes nothing...take a look at how far I've come...people would comment and tell me I look "GREAT"..."You're really getting skinny"...and on and on...but I didn't believe them...I brushed it off...but WOW!!! I really am...so THANK YOU for all those sweet comments...THANK YOU for pushing me and complimenting me!!! 

 

Look how UNHAPPY I look on Jan. 12, 2012...and then how PROUD and HAPPY I am on Mar. 12, 2012!!!! I like the new Becki!!! :) :) :)

So the results and where I'm at now...

Weight starting...196.7

Weight NOW...187.3

Down 9.4 lbs AND 16 3/4 inches!!!! 

I've lost 4 1/2 in. on my waist and 4 1/4 in. on my chest...how can I NOT be proud of that!?!?! Plus more throughout my body... 

Anyways...it CAN be done...I DID it...and I WILL keep going!!! Gotta get my eating/nutrition in order...and I'll be headed down the right road AGAIN!!!!