So things have been tough the last couple days. I've been down, frustrated, upset, annoyed...and therefore I've NOT eaten much...then when I do decide to eat something I SCARF food in. :( I've tried to figure out what it is that sparked my depression lately...and I don't know?!?! Finances, sick kids, yucky weather, winter time, small living quarters?!?! I don't know?? I did fiure out today that it has been since about December 15th that someone in my house has been sick...that is really about a month. No wonder I'm going crazy.
Anyways...as for the depression and my yucky day...what do I do?!?! I need to get out of this slump...I realize it's a problem...I want to change...but whatelse can I do?? I haven't been great with my meds the last week, which is obviously an issue...the exercising has been helping too...and eating better is good...BUT...I still struggle. Ugh...
Ok...enough babbling...I just needed to vent...thanks to whoever reads this!!
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Here's a big cyber {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}} from me! Hang in there! Things will work themselves out!
I think that the thing last night may [not] have helped. See with me it just gets my wheels turning, and since I have anxiety anyway, I got anxiety about having anxiety!!! Yep thought that would make you laugh! But really it is good to know about stuff, but it also makes us realize what we are going through is not the norm. I'm NOT supposed to feel this way all the time, and neither are you! Love ya, and i am praying that this weather turns around soon so I can get out and walk in the fresh air!
Wish we lived closer! Don't go to a regular dr for the meds and depression---make sure you are seeing a psychiatrist; it makes a huge difference!!!
Take your meds, as irritating as it at times, every day. Try to take them at the same time every day as well.
Get into some good counseling with a good therapist; you need a 3rd party to "vent" to who can help you understand why you feel the way you do.
Call on friends, family and let them help---you need a good support system.
At least once a month go do something that is just for you---get your hair done, shopping, take a class; just make sure it is something that takes you out of the house with no kids or Ryan.
You are not alone in this! Call me whenever you need to---whatever time it is!!!! Love ya, you are great
I don't have anything brilliant to say, I just want to acknowledge that I read this and that it's no fun to feel crummy.
Hello sister!
I, along with Talyn don't have anyting brilliant to say and I want you to know that I am encouraging you. And if we lived in the same town we'd be great accountability partners! The last two days I've given up gluten again and it's so hard. I eat almost everything in sight that is not gluten. (not much) and binge on chocolate!
But... I do know that if I were allowing myself to eat gluten, I would enjoy vegetables, fruits, and healthy meals.
You need to allow yourself to screw up and not hate yourself for it. Days when I eat a little gluten and I want to jsut got to the bathroom and puke it up cuz I'm so mad at myself... I just remind myself... just a little set back.. no big deal... don't give up!
I have a friend who went to couceling for binge eating and her therapist told her "make a list of 25 things you could be doing instead of eating something unhealthy. ie)read a book to your kiddos, go on a walk, vacuum, doe 40 pushups; any time you get hungry and see yourself walking into binge eating, or just eating something fattening... look at your list and do one of those things.
As far as depression goes. I don't think I've ever actually battled with it, but my hormones do get really out of wack when pregnant and I have my period. It makes me a crazy person! Know the good Lord above will never give you more than you can handle. Don't like life to seriously... this is only our temporary home. God will ALWAYS provide for you!
You're doing AMAZING!!! I'm always here if you need to vent! Just the fact that you've decided to do this is HUGE! GOOD JOB BECKI! So proud of you!
There's a reason that people always advise you to handle your depression in the following ways:
1. Get out and about
2. Take your meds
3. Talk or write about it
4. Exercise
5. Eat well
(There are probably more...)
It's because those are the things that work. Just like in our spiritual lives, we're told over and over again to do the basics...it's because that what works! Just do the basics and see where you are at. (On both fronts!)
Hey Becki!
I have struggled with depression for almost 10 years now, and all I can say is do whatever it takes to feel like you again. I'm currently on two anti-depressants and I have an anti-anxiety medication that helps me sleep at night...for when I neeed it. I feel better than I have since I started dealing with depression. It's hard, because we want to tell ourselves that depression is just a lack of faith or it's just in our heads, and maybe for some people that might be the case. But for most of us, I believe that when you have a chemical problem, you use a chemical to fix it. People with diabetes use diabetes meds, people with cancer take cancer treaments, and people with depression use anti-depressants, so they can be HAPPY! Remember the Lord said that men(and women) are that they might have joy :) I know it's a masive comment, but I hope it helps and know that you are not alone :)
I hope our outing was a nice reprieve. It helps us both to hang out since we understand each others situations. I wish I had better advice, but know I am here whenever you need me and I will do whatever I can. Love ya!
So many good things written above!! Becki, a month of sick kids will do in anybody. It sounds like you need some breaks and some tlc. If I'd read this earlier, I could've brought you some soup. Hang in there!!
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