I struggled...but I OVERCAME it :)

I was REALLY beating myself up the last couple days. I'm in the Young Women's program in our ward (girls ages 12-18 at church)...so I was at the "New Beginnings" program on Wednesday night. I had been to 2 or 3 different activities that I was STRONG and did NOT eat the refreshments or treats that were available...I was doing SO SO good...then came the end on Wednesday and time for cupcakes. The looked beautiful and delicious...everyone was commenting on how great they were...so I had to try. :( I gave in and I had one...and a half...:( I was so SICK from all the sugar. Yes they were DELICIOUS...and I couldn't make anything as tasty and nice looking...BUT...I knew better.
Well...the rest of the night...and all day yesterday I just beat myself up. I was angry...depressed...frustrated...annoyed...and upset that I had given in and eaten some. I know it's not the end of the world...but to me it was like a "temptation" on the Biggest Loser...and I gave in. :( It wasn't worth it...I had to do 50 extra push-ups because of it...I had to ONLY eat salads and fresh things yesterday to make up for the extra sugar/calories...I was SO SO mad...the whole day kinda fell apart...and I was REALLY struggling...
Then my amazing friend Eric sends me a text...just asking how my "food" was going for the day...little does he know I was in tears when I got his message...because it was just what I needed, who I needed to talk to, and soon what I needed to hear!!! It wasn't anything AMAZING...(well it was to me)...but he just said things like "it's not the end of the world", "we all have days that get away from us, just stay focused, deal with it, and don't let your nutrition 'get away from you'", "you are doing GREAT", "EVERYONE struggles Becki, even me"...things like that, that just hit where I needed it. He knew what I needed to hear...he knew how to encourage me to keep going...and he was there when I needed him most. It was GREAT to chat with him over text...yes I have my husband to talk things through with too...and he's a HUGE support and help too...but Ryan loves me regardless. He's not going to be harsh when I need it...he's not going to tell me to drop and give him 50 push-ups by the end of the day...(well maybe he will, but I won't listen) :)...but he is there for me ALL the time. Having Eric is AMAZING...he has the heart that is needed to get me through my HARD days and my exciting times!!!
Well...after my "pep-talk" from Eric...I sucked it up...did some push-ups...ate a delicious, healthy salad for lunch...had an apple for a snack...and then another BIG, healthy salad for dinner!! LOTS of water...and LOTS of push-ups. I went to Zumba last night...LOVED IT...and I woke up ready this morning to start a NEW day!!! 
I pushed through my struggle...realized I just let myself down, but that it was NOT going to stop me from succeeding and doing what I have set up to do. I have goals...and I WILL accomplish them...no matter how hard...what emotions come...or what I have to do as "penalties" from Eric...I WILL SUCCEED.
The end of the pep-talk from Eric went like this..."a terrible workout is better then no workout, some days are going to be easier and better than others. Your strength will build from how well you handle the bad days, and from your support system."

SOOO...THANK YOU Eric...Thank you to my amazing, supportive husband...Thank you to my supportive friends and family who are there pushing me through. You all have NO idea how much I appreciate it...and yes the cupcake was YUMM-O...BUT...I know now not to binge and eat out of emotion...I need to be STRONG!!!