WHO does that!?!?!

It's been a TOUGH couple of days with my kiddos...I'm struggling with patience...I'm struggling with their choices...I'm having a hard time with the whining...with the LACK of please's and thank you's...I'm just having a HARD time with them.
Well this morning/early afternoon wasn't much better. I was frustrated...I was annoyed...I was ANGRY...and taking it all out on the poor kids :(. It was bad...and one thing they chose not to listen to me about...led to a few more BAD things happening and affecting them and their friends...WHEN WILL THEY LEARN!?!?! Ugh...
Anyways...it's been tough...(not uncommon in the life of a mom though right!?!?!)...well my GREAT hubby texted and said he was on his way home for lunch...FINALLY relief!!! Even though it was only 1 p.m...and they would take naps...but!?!?! Anyways...Ryan was coming HOME...even if it's just an hour...it a break and a relief for me!!!
So he gets home...asks if I need to go somewhere...I say NO...(kinda snotty and rude like)...and then the kids continue whining, fighting, and complaining about ANYTHING in sight. I had it...I grabbed my purse and keys and water...and said..."I'LL BE BACK"...kids were crying more and wondering where I was going...whatever!!! 

Well there...I left...I had a break...I had thoughts about what to do...go to In 'N Out and get a shake...go to McD's and get lunch...go to the grocery store and get treats...go drive around and waste gas...(you notice how the majority of my thoughts were about sweets, candy, and FOOD?? YUCK)...well I didn't do any of that...
Next thing I knew I found myself driving to the Jr. High track (where we usually go walking in the mornings, but didn't today)...I got out and was DETERMINED to run some...(not a normal thing for me)...I got to the track...walked a half lap...then ran...well jogged. But I did it...I jogged/walked a whole mile...4 times around the track. Jogging 2 1/2 of those laps...and walking 1 1/2!!! I was happy with myself...sweat and all...apparently I NEEDED to burn off some steam and frustration!?!?! It felt GREAT...and it showed me I CAN do it...I CAN jog...I CAN get to running...I CAN DO IT!!! 
But who does that!?!?! NOT ME a year ago...but now I'll do that instead of getting a shake!!! Yay me!!!

Holy - Guacamole :)

So a friend who comes to my Zumba class has been talking to me and leaving comments on here about trying out this "strength training" class at the Rec Center. I have another friend who had been going, and loved it, but I wasn't commited to going. Until now...I CAN DO IT!!! 

It's August 1st...I've slacked for a few too many months now...and I need to get back on the band wagon. So here goes...the class that works for me is from 5:30-6 AM...so yes it's EARLY...but oh man...my arms are KILLING me after just that half hour. I had high hopes of thinking...sure I'll go to this class, then I'll go to the spin class after!?!?!?! HA...not yet...gotta work up to that I suppose!!! I'm a wee bit SORE!!! But here's to starting out...here's to getting into the habit of getting up early, and doing something for ME. It's something that gets pushed aside WAY too much in my life...and I need it to stay happy...so here we go. 
I'm committing to eating better...less sugar...more water...more fruits and veggies...more exercise that focuses on different parts of my body...I know I can do it...I saw it happen in just a couple months at the beginning of the year. Then I got upset, frustrated, and lost ALL motivation and desire. I need to stay positive...(which isn't an easy thing for me lately)...but I know I can do it...I know there's hope...and I want to see progress and results. 
I've had a new blog given to me from a GREAT friend...and the messages and emails that come from it, really get me thinking...and realizing that I...ME...I am the only one who can choose how I will react to things...how I will let them affect ME...how I will handle them and go with them...and how MY perception of things will be. It's all up to ME...so I've tried to think about that this last weekend. Although there have been a couple set-backs...and I still get frustrated and upset...I know it'll take time...but I want to do it...I want to be happy...I want my family to be happy...I want us to all be happy TOGETHER. Not in our own little bubbles...but all together.
So...here goes...August 1st...a new start...a new month...a new week...a new day...I CAN do it...I WILL do it...if anyone would like to join me and make little changes turn into BIG changes...you're welcome to...I'd LOVE the company!!! :) :) :)
Thank you to all of you for the amazing support...the hugs...the concern...the LOVE...it has all been felt...and I appreciate it more then I can express!!! I've got some GREAT people in my life!! Thank you...HERE I go!!!