Monday, May 23, 2011

Struggles...stresses...and blessings...

So our laptop got a virus or something...and has died. Which means the only way I have to do anything online is to use our iPhone. Isn't isn't easy or convenient, but at least it's a way to connect huh?!?! But without the laptop...I'm not able to upload my bodybugg, blog, or put in my food diary stuff. It kinda sucks...which leads me to this post. Life the last few weeks has been tough...and yet ok...hard...but still good. I've struggled with my depression again...I've been harder on the kids...doing worse with eating and being healthy...and not really seeing much of the positive or blessings I have in my life. It hasn't been fun...and I just wish these ruts and struggles would go away. I just thought I'd make a small list o my stresses and struggles...
•this rain
•money
•the rain
•being cooped in a small apartment
•hyper, ancy kids who are sick being inside
•RAIN
•my eating choices and not being stronger to say NO
•my scale
•others who seem to get everything and we work and work and still nothing
•oh...and how about the RAIN
Seriosly it's been rainin here for like 35-40 of the last 55. It makes it really hard to have any ambition...any energy...any happiness...it's just been crappy. The sunshine really does make life better...does make me happier...and does help. However it hasn't been around lately...ugh.
Anyways...I'm sorry for the lack of posting...but hopefully things will look up and start to get better here!!! I do have so much to be grateful for...it's just hard to see it when I'm so down.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

LOVE it!!!

I just had to post on here...since I said I would...and haven't yet...well I havent' done all my weigh-in/measurement stuff...BUT...I have to say...

I LOVE MY BODYBUGG!!! I would suggest them to anyone who is trying to lose weight or is working on it!! Yes...they are expensive...BUT...to get online and see how many calories I burn throughout the day...doing EVERYDAY things...i.e.-carrying Kyson, laundry, dishes, grocery shopping, going for walks with kids, playing with kids, making dinner, ZUMBA, watching TV, laughing...ANYTHING I am doing and it burning calories...it's awesome...it graphs it all out to show you when you're burning the most and how many a minute you're burning...I think it's cool!!!
THEN...you go in and log what you've eaten during the day...and it figured out the calories you've eaten. It breaks it down also in to protiens, fats, & carbs too...so you can see where the food you're eating fits!! Pretty cool if you ask me!!!

Anyways...just had to share that I have burned over 3000 calories the last few days...and I've only taken in right around 1900...so I'm having my "deficit" like I'm supposed to...HOWEVER...I don't think I'm eating the right foods or getting enough GOOD calories...because today I was REALLY dragging...I couldn't wake up...and when I was awake...I was shaky and dizzy kind of!?!?! I don't know...I need to make a menu and figure out what to eat, when to eat, and have it still be healthy!?!?!
Hmmmm...advice anyone!?!?! Yay for Zumba & bodybugg though!!! I LOVE THEM!!!

Monday, May 9, 2011

New Toy...and MUCH needed Zumba!!

So I got a new toy...a late birthday present/early Mother's Day gift!!! I have had it sitting on the couch while I've been recovering from my dental surgery STUFF ;) But last night I finally pulled it out again and looked at it, read up on it, set it all up...and now I officially have a REAL, LIVE...

BODYBUGG :) :) :) I feel like a Biggest Loser!!!

This is what it looks like...
Well...I got it all set up and checked out the website it goes along with, that I got a free 12-month subscription when I bought the bodybugg...and it's pretty cool!!! I like this thing, because it keeps track of the calories you burn AND the calories you take in...so not only when I'm exercising is it tracking it...but also what I'm taking in!!! Not to mention...I don't have to be doing Zumba, spin, or treadmills or anything else...I can simply be shopping at Wal-Mart...or doing laundry...or cleaning the house...or carrying my kids around...or making dinner...all those things we do throughout the day that is also helping us burn calories...it tracks it!! SWEET huh!!! I think so!!!
So today...I logged all my calories/food I ate...(kind of disappointing)...I have things to definitely work on!!! But with all I took in and what I burned throughout the day...I had a 1222 calorie DEFICIT!!! WOO HOO :) :) So I burned MORE then I took in...hooray for me!!! I think I will really like this new toy!!! Thanks babe!!! :) :) :) 


And after having a pretty crappy week...being in pain STILL...and just not having much energy or desire to do anything that might cause more pain to my body...I didn't do Zumba last week :( BLAH...and it sucked let me tell you. I did go on Monday night, but I didn't do it like I usually do...I took it easy...and was actually pathetic!!! I THOROUGHLY enjoyed tonight SO much more!!! I was back at it...and ready to go!! I've been nervous about getting into it again, because I didn't do great last week with eating...exercising...or anything...just did REAL good at being lazy...eating junk...and laying around...SO!?!?! But it wasn't so bad tonight...and I actually had a GREAT time!! Truly LOVE my Zumba instructor, friends, and energy that comes from that class!!! LOVE IT!!!  So I get to teach tomorrow night...and it'll be fine I'm sure...but missing a week of teaching...and just coming back after a lazy week...it'll be tiring I'm sure...there's a quote posted on the wall at the Rec Center...don't know if I've posted it on here before or not...BUT...it says...


"7 days without exercise makes one WEAK"...

And I couldn't agree more...I'm feeling it...and I just need to get back into the swing of things!!! So here goes!! Take it and RUN!!! Can't wait for what this new toy will help my accomplish...and what my love for Zumba will do!! I am thinking I need to change things up too and add something different!?!? Spin class again...or running (which I haven't started or gotten into yet :( terrible huh?!!?)...or something different to help my body use different muscles or something to help trim me down too!?!? I don't know?!??! Suggestions!?!?!
Anyways...I will be posting tomorrow or Wednesday my newest measurements and weigh-in...so stay tuned for that!!!



Monday, May 2, 2011

Bump in the road...and then another...oh and one more too :)

So this last week has been a TOUGH one, and I don't wish it on anyone else. I feel like I was doing good and helping others out and serving them in a way...but then it all comes back and hits me just as hard!?!?! Maybe it's because I wasn't doing it completely humbly!??!?! I don't know...

Well we've had a few bumps in my road this last week...more then the usual...sick kids, teething baby, allergy kids, and so on...last Tuesday we got a call from Ryan's mom that his sister in Logan was having another struggle...so on Wednesday morning I called to see what I could do to help...I was told "nothing"...so ok. I tried...then a little bit later I got a call from his sister asking if I'd come stay up there with her 2 yr old to help out...I thought...Hmmm, instead of bringing FOUR more kids (my 3 and my 11 yr old niece) up there to their place...how about I just load one more sweetie into my van and bring her down here so Mommy/new baby can rest and relax and recover without interruptions!?!?! Erin was ok with that...so we packed up the kids and took off for a road trip to Logan :) Yes, it was a "bump" in the road, but one that I was VERY grateful I was able to help with and be there when it was needed.

Well then came Friday...still had the 2 extra nieces for the week, which wasn't really a problem at all...it was fun and entertaining for the kids!!! But I had a dentist appt scheduled...and not a "normal" "routine" appointment :( It was a "fixing an already done root canal" appointment. :( It was SOOOO not fun...I don't remember the technical name for it...but they cut your gums, pull the tissue away from the teeth, cut off the bottoms of the roots that are getting infected, scoop out the infection in the jaw/gums, plug it all back up, and push together to be stitched up. :) :) Sounds fun huh!! Well it wasn't...they said mine was worse then they've seen in a long time...there was a LOT of blood...there was a LOT of Novocaine...there was a LOT of pain after it all wore off...there was a LOT of swelling...and it just HURT :(


I've pretty much felt like this since Friday afternoon :( Having ice on my face...swelling is slowly going down...only supposed to be eating pudding, ice cream, yogurt, shakes...you know REAL healthy stuff!?!?! Not supposed to lift anything heavier then a jug of milk...(guess that cuts out my 27 lb Kyson...AND the 2 2 yr olds I had this weekend too )...thank goodness for Auntie Shauna, Gramma Jones, and most of all...my amazing hubby Ryan!!! Now I've got yucky stitches in my mouth...a sore incision thing...ya...it hurts and I don't wish it on ANYONE...I've even had to cancel Zumba for tomorrow night :( BLAH...

Well...that was the 2nd bump...that is now going on day 4+ of being painful and annoying. 

Then comes the last bump...with all this GREAT help and stuff Ryan has been doing...he's come down with something :( Poor guy...I try to get him to lay down and rest, but he refuses cuz he doesn't want to seem like a "baby" since I just had "surgery" and he's just sick...I appreciate him so much more then her knows I think. I'm so glad he's willing to take the kids for a day so I can sleep or rest...or that even though he's not feeling the best, he'll play with the kids and keep them entertained when I need a break...I hope he'll be better SOON...cuz we all need to get over our issues...and I'm hoping he realizes how truly lucky I am to have a GREAT hubby who actually steps up when it's needed most!! I LOVE YOU BABE :) :) :)

Here's to hoping for a better week this week...AND that the scale doesn't add on TOO many pounds for the pudding, yogurt, and ice cream I've been eating...YIKES :) :) :)